Nick Vicious Confesses

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In a world that will last a few days.

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[Laughter]

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Everything you know is wrong.

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We are fighting the fake news.

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Yeah, that sounds fun.

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Let's set some boundaries with a spoiled control freak.

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Is that why you're doing this?

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We'll then get your shit together.

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All your shit.

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So it's together.

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And a few hours should probably be saying enough to work yourself

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into some sort of towering Jesus-based rage

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at the hazy recognition of being seduced by some kind of cruel Samoan.

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[Music]

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Who are these people?

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These faces.

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Where do they come from?

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They look like caricatures of you who's car dealers from Dallas

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and sweet Jesus.

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There are a whole lot of them at 4.30 on Sunday morning.

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[Music]

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What in the fuck are you wearing?

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One of those shirts that the priest wear.

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But I'm not touching little boys.

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No touching little boys around here.

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I am wearing the priest shirt.

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I am for once speechless.

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I remember was joking about this bit.

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Yeah.

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And then I said, "No, I'm gonna go on to the Amazon.

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See how quickly I can get one."

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And then we get to start and show today.

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I come in, it's an empty chair first off.

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I had to call yourself when you're not even in the building.

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Yeah.

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[Laughter]

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I'm looking at your empty chair at like quarter after.

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So I called you.

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And then you show up and you're weird.

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You're weird.

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We're gonna get official tab and everything.

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This thing is legit.

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So Rob is legitimately a registered duties to priest.

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So that is a true thing.

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He is ordained.

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And ordained through the universal life church of my destiny.

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I believe that...

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I am told twice ordained.

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Let me ask you.

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I believe I've now been responsible for that.

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I was responsible for that too, wasn't I?

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The dude is part, yes.

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Because we did that together.

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And then the shirt.

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I mean, I suggested it, I suppose.

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Yeah.

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Said wouldn't it be funny if?

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And then...

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I'm not gonna fucking confess to you.

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It's not gonna...

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No. Go change.

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Can you change like right now and then we'll start...

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We'll do more of the show.

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Please.

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Right now by me again.

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Because all of a sudden...

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I can make some wins...

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You need to go change.

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You need to go change.

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See what happens when you piss off the Lord?

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Yeah, apparently.

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She...

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Okay.

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Okay.

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Fine.

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Just go change.

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Okay.

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I'll...

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I'll vamp for a minute while you're...

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No lightning bolts or anything.

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Oh my god.

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Just vamp.

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But we need...

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Like we need this kind of...

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This extra drama.

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In our lives right now.

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Yeah.

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No.

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What the show we're about to do, what the things we're about to talk about.

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Let's go ahead and start off blaspheming against the fucking Lord.

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And see how much...

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How much more shit we can get into.

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Don't worry Rob.

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We're gonna wait for you.

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I can't believe you turned this camera off.

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You know, it was good enough...

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For me...

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To sit and look at the empty chair, right?

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So...

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Why is it not good enough for everyone?

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Why do I have to be on camera by myself?

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The empty chair...

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Put your earphones in.

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The empty chair was good enough for me.

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How come everybody else couldn't watch the empty chair?

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Come back.

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You could've hit the button anytime you wanted to.

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I know, but then I feel like I would be as bad as you are.

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What?

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What were about to talk about today?

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Do you really think that blaspheming against the Lord is a smart move?

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Probably not, but the way I look at it...

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I did it anyways.

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Jesus, he's got his own bleep now.

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Wow.

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This is this one off the rails quickly today.

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Okay, you could blame the wife for this one.

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Actually, I'm kind of jealous. I like it.

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She said something about saying the word...

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And too much, so...

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I decided...

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You've literally got the word shit written behind you.

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I know.

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Twice.

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It's great.

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Oh wait, hold on.

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Don't overthink shit and get shit done.

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That's true.

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I'm sorry.

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The other shit is watched out.

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So I just...

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Yeah, because of the neon lights.

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So...

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What do we...

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How do we start?

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This is...

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Well, I asked you if you wanted to confess.

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No, I...

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All right.

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So, okay, so not to make light of the issue.

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Let's just...

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Let's be real about it here.

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You got hit with some really big life-changing, life-altering stuff since our last episode.

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Yeah.

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And you've been processing and dealing with it since.

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Yeah.

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And you...

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I know wanted to talk about it because there's a lot of other people out there that struggle with the same thing.

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Yeah.

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And to be...

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So it's like a Nick Vicious therapy.

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Well, that's... that's where the idea of the father confessor bullshit came from.

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Exactly.

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But the honest.

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But I got hit with a diagnosis for diabetes.

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Diabetes, too, which means that my body cannot process blood sugar correctly.

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And I...

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I was going through some things with my heart not beating correctly.

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That's what led me to the doctor.

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And they did the blood test and so get this diagnosis back.

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And just looking at some of the possibilities of things that can happen from here on out.

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You know, I'm only 41.

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Is quite frankly fairly terrifying.

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I don't... I don't know how people get diagnosed with this and don't immediately change everything about their lives.

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Which is pretty much my reaction to it at this point.

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Which is...

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I think for a lot of people it's willpower.

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Like, oh, you know...

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You really need to change everything.

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I can't do that.

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I don't have it.

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I just don't feel like I have any choice.

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Well, that's probably the healthy attitude that have.

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I can't...

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I've been looking at the food that I've been eating.

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Which, you know, I had this image of who gets this disease is being like...

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I told this joke a bunch of times and nobody's laughed but that's okay.

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It's like the, you know, 60-year-old 400-pound mima in her scooter...

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Get her a moo moo.

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Yeah, right.

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I think you never...

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No, I never got to the moo moo but that's good.

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That's a good...

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See?

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That would have gotten people to laugh.

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Yeah, the moo moo...

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Everybody loves moo moo.

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Everybody loves a good moo moo.

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Anyway, drinking the 24-pack of Pepsi, that's who I thought was a disease, right?

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Well, it's not that.

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There's a genetic portion to it.

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There is stress and anxiety.

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Play a factor in...

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Which you struggle...

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You suffer from the anxiety part.

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Woo!

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And the stress part.

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Yeah, I'm not...

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I'm learning not to, you know, not to live like that anymore.

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But it just...

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It was part of, I guess, a defense mechanism growing up and just how I related to the world around me for a long time.

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And...

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Well, that was also part of how you were forced to relate to the world around you for a few years, too.

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Right.

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I...in the grand scheme of making good choices to control my own stress and anxiety and things like that.

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I dare say the proof is in the pudding that I wasn't all that successful with it.

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But you tried.

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I think in a lot of ways, it's going to work out to be okay because these are things that can no longer be ignored if I want to live to be an old man.

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And that's still pretty much the plan, right?

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And if you go and you look at all of the things that you increase your risk for with something like this, stroke, heart attack, dementia,

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you could lose your fucking eyes or your feet.

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You know, they have the doctor that diagnosed this, tell me the next time I come in, he wants to see my feet.

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That fucking...that brings this shit home, man.

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Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. He wants to see your feet the next time he sees you. Are you sure he just doesn't have a foot fetish?

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Uh, reasonably sure. They want to make sure that the...

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Or...did you see a doctor in San Francisco?

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I did, yes.

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I'm just saying you can lose your feet as part of having diabetes.

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Yes, actually my high school band director lost several toes because of diabetes.

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I don't know how to eventually his life, but...right, so we don't want to...we don't want to go down that route. We want to control it with...

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Yeah, as long as possible.

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With all your digits?

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Yeah, with all my digits and...you know, I want to be able to remember who I am to the day that I die and things like that.

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I'm...I'm gonna do what the doctor says and we're gonna change the lifestyle. That's all...that's...that's the trick.

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What I was gonna say is, you know, you look at the things that you increase the risk for with a diagnosis like this.

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And then you go and you look at the ways to decrease the risk for those same things.

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And invariably, invariably, the...the procedures pretty much the same to handle all of the things.

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It's diet and exercise and lifestyle and stress and...

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The more you control those things...

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Mental health and physical health.

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And spiritual health, really. I mean, the whole...the whole package.

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Oh, that's why you wanted me to change out of the shared. You're working on the spiritual health, too. Got it? Okay.

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Now, I'm not...

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You can only take so much blast from me in a week.

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Okay. We already hit the quota.

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Yeah, let's not tempt fate any further than we already have.

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It's hard to look at the numbers that came back as part of this and not just think that there was some damage done. There...there was. That's...that's what the numbers are saying.

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And the numbers don't lie.

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My kidneys are fine. My...you know, everything...all the organs seem to be working right.

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But my system just won't tolerate the sugar any longer.

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And so...I'm glad to say that...

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Now that I'm measuring and testing these things on a regular basis...

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The blood pressure and stuff is kind of normalized, so all that's really good.

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And the blood sugar is coming down.

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It's going to take some time before this problem is under control.

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But, you know...

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All right, hit me real quick.

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Before your diagnosis, what would be an average dinner and then tell me what your average dinner has been since the diagnosis?

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Oh, just to get a...just to get a feel for how different things are.

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It was always very carb-heavy.

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So, you know, it would be a giant plate of some sort of red meat and a giant plate of carbs.

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I mean, I'm saying I was pretty good at killing five potatoes at a sitting.

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And, you know, bread and all this other stuff.

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And do it at night and then get...sleep it off.

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Like, a normal person would do.

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And so, a lot of carbs and protein, and by a lot, we mean a lot because of portion...

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A lot.

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Portions.

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Right, because of work.

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You were cooking too much for one person.

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Correct.

262
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And eating too much for one person because I wasn't eating regularly throughout the day.

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So, I was really good at that being the one meal I would have all day would be that meal that was filled with carbs and...

264
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So, you are doing a lot of bad things when you eat like that.

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And...

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Did I know that it was as unhealthy as it turned out to be?

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I really didn't.

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I didn't.

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It's not like I was stuffing my face with pizza five nights a week. I wasn't eating fast food all the time.

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As a 40-year-old man, I felt that my diet was fairly reasonable.

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And I was clearly wrong.

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Not just on the diet level, but the timing of the meals and how late I would eat.

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And then there's a genetic portion of it.

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I remember my mom telling stories about my grandfather...

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And how she...

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You mean, how she...

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You mean, how she...

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You mean, how she...

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You mean, how she...

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You mean, how she...

281
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...know what genetics...

282
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Y'all and genetics are swear to God.

283
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I don't know...

284
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You and the wife both.

285
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Your genetics are just...

286
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Well, I...

287
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Yeah, I don't know what to say.

288
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I can't defend my genetics.

289
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I had nothing to do with it.

290
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I'm just here.

291
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Anyway.

292
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I didn't ask for my genetics.

293
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Right.

294
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I didn't consent to those.

295
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I nobody asked me how this was supposed to happen.

296
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Anyway, my granddad, she would feed him candy as he was driving,

297
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because he was a diabetic.

298
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And that's...

299
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I think that's a different kind of diabetes.

300
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I think that's type of one.

301
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That's probably type one.

302
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The diabetes.

303
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The diabetes.

304
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So this has been like super life-changing because it has to be.

305
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You know, that's...

306
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That's the only way I can sleep at night without thinking that I'm going to have a heart attack or a stroke or...

307
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I mean...

308
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I'm in a Facebook group on diabetes now, of course.

309
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And so that's interesting because it's a lot of...

310
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There's a lot of free exchange of like people's actual experiences while they're battling this disease.

311
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Oh, that's good. You found a group. That's good.

312
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And...

313
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Well, I'll just tell you something tonight, somebody posted up a glucose reading from their meter

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and was like, "This is super high."

315
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And in the thread, people were like, "Yeah, you should probably be headed to the emergency room with a blood sugar that high."

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I know what the blood result that I got said my current blood sugar was when all of this started.

317
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And it wasn't much fucking lower than the number that dude was told to go to the ear with.

318
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It was a little...

319
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You go into the doctor was a good thing when you thought you were having heart issues.

320
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Yeah, so the sugar in your bloodstream can interrupt the electrical signals that the heart gets.

321
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And what was happening is I was getting what they call an extra heartbeat.

322
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It was happening a lot, a lot. And then of course once that started happening, the anxiety started feeding back into that.

323
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And then you could sort of make that happen with the anxiety.

324
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It was a fucking messy, bro.

325
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It was messy as shit.

326
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That's a fact. I ignored this and I ignored taking care of myself in a way that I had always had access to.

327
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It's not like I didn't ever have insurance.

328
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Yeah, but I mean, we hate doctors. We hate doctors.

329
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We... Yeah.

330
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I don't hate them per se. I just don't like going to them unless I really, really have to.

331
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My thing is I'm going to be stuck in a lobby with people who are actually sick.

332
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And I'm going to end up catching something.

333
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It's not even that for me. A doctor is the only mechanic that you'll go to that will fuck you for life.

334
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Yeah, right. And in a way, that's exactly what happened here, but it's not the doctor's fault, right?

335
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I mean, he was gentle and used some lube though.

336
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Yeah, he didn't just spin out that thing because he wants me to come back.

337
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Yeah, he's got a milk insurance company for all he can.

338
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Well, they got me for life at this point because you know, I'm always going to need to manage this disease.

339
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And the hope is that I get to be one of the people that can reverse the symptoms and take this disease and put it into remission with good habits and good diet.

340
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And once it's in, you know, you get to be in remission when you...

341
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when you can stop taking the medication and for a period of like three months, six months, whatever your blood sugar stays in the range that it's supposed to be in, by the way, if you've got a blood meter, that's between a glucose reading of 70 to 100.

342
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You get to have a little spike in the morning because your body tries to wake you up by filling you with a little bit more of that blood sugar.

343
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So about 130 is normal when you're waking. You really want it to be down by like 110.

344
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And let's just say I've been flirting with some of those lower numbers since we've started working on this.

345
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And I hope is that means that my body's not completely shot over all of this, right?

346
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And your high blood pressure has been going down, back down towards normal. So that's good.

347
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And it's spooky a shit to know that because I have a blood pressure cuff that sits in the bathroom now.

348
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And we check and log this information so that when I go back to the doctor in, you know, in the next month or whenever.

349
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That we've got data for him to look at and go, okay, well, this is kind of where you're trending.

350
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We need to do this now. Let's wait the med, whatever it's he's going to do so that we have that information.

351
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What may end up happening here is this thing called a, it's called a CGM. It's a continuous glucose meter.

352
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Oh, one of those little things that you wear, yeah, you wear on your arm and it ties into an app.

353
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It, I think you change the thing every two weeks or whatever. Some people get our logic to them.

354
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But in any way, what it does is exactly what it says it does it continuously monitors your blood sugar level.

355
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And because you, you things go up and down as you eat and as your day goes on and.

356
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And then, basically the more information that you can have, the easier it is to get that pattern nailed for you.

357
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To get to get this under control. And then.

358
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I think the idea is that as long as I haven't damaged any nerves, which.

359
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Doesn't seem to be the case.

360
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And then, the same thing that I've done is that the same thing that I've done is that the same thing that I've done is.

361
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And then, the same thing that I've done is that the same thing that I've done is that the same thing that I've done is.

362
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And then, the same thing that I've done is that the same thing that I've done is.

363
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And then, the same thing that I've done is.

364
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And then, the same thing that I've done is that I've done, the same thing that I've done is.

365
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And then, the same thing that I've done is, the same thing that I've done is.

366
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And then, the same thing that I've done is, the same thing that I've done is.

367
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And then, the same thing that I've done is, the same thing that I've done is, the same thing that I've done is.

368
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And then, the same thing that I've done is, the same thing that I've done is, the same thing that I've done is.

369
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And then, the same thing that I've done is, the same thing that I've done is, the same thing that I've done is.

370
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And then, the same thing that I've done is, the same thing that I've done is, the same thing that I've done is.

371
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And then, the same thing that I've done is, the same thing that I've done is, the same thing that I've done is.

372
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But, I've got some good cookbooks on the way and I'm pretty well dedicated to shopping correctly for this.

373
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If this is one area of my life that I can afford to spend a little more money on, then that's what I should do.

374
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Because it'll help keep me alive.

375
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And right now, while you're consciously having to think about it and having to force yourself to make the right decisions over time, it's just going to become second nature and you won't even think about it.

376
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That's the idea is that you just use this as a catalyst to do the right things and to know what they are.

377
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And that was my biggest failing is not that I want, I mean, I just didn't see the harm that I was doing.

378
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And...

379
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But you felt it. You were feeling the harm that you were doing.

380
00:22:38,400 --> 00:22:51,400
I guess, I don't know, I never felt bad. I mean, no, that's not true. Other than my heart, tripping out, I would not have known that there was a problem at all.

381
00:22:51,400 --> 00:23:06,400
I mean, but once you start taking this medication, this stuff called metformin, one of the things that happened to me is clearly I wear glasses.

382
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So my vision is already being corrected and it's been like that for a long time. So there's nothing super unusual about that.

383
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I wore glasses in my 20s.

384
00:23:18,400 --> 00:23:23,400
The medication that I'm on left me almost blinded for like two weeks.

385
00:23:23,400 --> 00:23:24,400
That is crazy.

386
00:23:24,400 --> 00:23:32,400
I could not see my, I could not read anything on my phone. I couldn't read my laptop screen.

387
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Unless you would all Mr. McGoo on it.

388
00:23:35,400 --> 00:23:40,400
Right. Right. I had to make the screen like for more than four hundred percent. Yeah, exactly.

389
00:23:40,400 --> 00:24:01,400
And then, and then we had enough recognition to get done the things we needed to get done. And so what that seems to be my understanding of it is that when you have diabetes and high blood sugar, the eyes, the tissue in the eyes, builds up fluid in them.

390
00:24:01,400 --> 00:24:15,400
And when you correct this issue, that is now changing and that's why your vision gets all fucked up. But like to the degree that it happened to me is just even more proof that we were not in good shape.

391
00:24:15,400 --> 00:24:20,400
So if that had continued unchecked, is that where it leads to like wet AMD that thing I see commercials for?

392
00:24:20,400 --> 00:24:34,400
Because I've been trying to figure out what the heck is wet AMD on what you know, macular degeneration. I don't know. I know that it leads to neuropathy, I think is what it's called.

393
00:24:34,400 --> 00:24:42,400
You just your eyes can't, they don't get enough blood because the, you know, so long as it doesn't lead to a Roni's, you're okay.

394
00:24:42,400 --> 00:24:47,400
I don't know. I don't know enough about that. I don't know if it's peronies a thing. I don't know what that is.

395
00:24:47,400 --> 00:24:58,400
Peronies is a thing. Okay. Well, I don't know what that is. So it's a bad, I'd like to think like it's like, oh, okay.

396
00:24:58,400 --> 00:25:06,400
Oh, my dick works fine. Thank you. That could have been a side effect of the medication. I'm just saying this thing. It still works.

397
00:25:06,400 --> 00:25:20,400
Yeah, that's what everybody wants. The fat, fat, diet, your 20s and your total twink. No, let's, let's, no way, not a fucking chance.

398
00:25:20,400 --> 00:25:24,400
But put your shirt on and go put your shirt on. Go away.

399
00:25:24,400 --> 00:25:34,400
Go off my, no, not you. I'm talking about the twink that you just, okay, go put your shirt on, go back to fucking class and leave me the fuck alone.

400
00:25:34,400 --> 00:25:40,400
I do not want to be called daddy and I don't want you in my, I don't want you in my apartment. Stay away from me.

401
00:25:40,400 --> 00:25:47,400
And please, for the good of the, for the good of all that is holy, wash the fucking acts off of your body.

402
00:25:47,400 --> 00:25:48,400
Ew.

403
00:25:48,400 --> 00:25:51,400
Oh, really? That's still a thing.

404
00:25:51,400 --> 00:25:55,400
I don't know. I don't really know any 20 year olds. I'm guessing.

405
00:25:55,400 --> 00:26:00,400
You know, I was that could have, that could have been a swing, swinging a miss. I don't know.

406
00:26:00,400 --> 00:26:07,400
I was at the bank the other day getting a cashier's check for property taxes and holy shit. Did you take your geratol?

407
00:26:07,400 --> 00:26:10,400
Yeah, you know, I skipped it that day.

408
00:26:10,400 --> 00:26:12,400
Oh, I had to go to the bank.

409
00:26:12,400 --> 00:26:18,400
Yeah, so actually, actually had to drive to a branch. It was weird.

410
00:26:18,400 --> 00:26:20,400
Oh, they had this thing called a teller.

411
00:26:20,400 --> 00:26:25,400
You could talk to a real person and they'd write a check for you. Sure, granddad.

412
00:26:25,400 --> 00:26:26,400
Yeah.

413
00:26:26,400 --> 00:26:31,400
People that people that use the right checks for you, grand, there's no problem.

414
00:26:31,400 --> 00:26:37,400
But she was a total trip. And we were talking about just how kids these days are just terrible.

415
00:26:37,400 --> 00:26:42,400
And I mean, dude, I don't know if you've noticed everyone these days is just a little bit pretty much terrible, but.

416
00:26:42,400 --> 00:26:43,400
Yes, terrible.

417
00:26:43,400 --> 00:26:52,400
But we were talking like, you know, if, if we were to be forcefully reintroduced into the dating scene, how fucked we would both be.

418
00:26:52,400 --> 00:26:53,400
Oh, I'm sorry.

419
00:26:53,400 --> 00:26:55,400
How we would be.

420
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Is something in that issue of work?

421
00:27:00,400 --> 00:27:01,400
Don't ask me.

422
00:27:01,400 --> 00:27:03,400
I have no idea.

423
00:27:03,400 --> 00:27:08,400
I don't date. I don't like anyone. They don't like me. That's just how it's going for now.

424
00:27:08,400 --> 00:27:15,400
That's the one thing the diabetes should make should like if there's a silver lining to any of this.

425
00:27:15,400 --> 00:27:20,400
It's that I'm going to be forced to lose another 50 pounds here.

426
00:27:20,400 --> 00:27:26,400
Before I'm satisfied with my body weight and then I'm going to look dead sexy.

427
00:27:26,400 --> 00:27:29,400
You know, so.

428
00:27:29,400 --> 00:27:32,400
Yeah, that'll be a nice.

429
00:27:32,400 --> 00:27:36,400
I may go early, but dammit, I'm going to leave a beautiful corpse. And that's all.

430
00:27:36,400 --> 00:27:38,400
There you go. Yeah, all the really matters.

431
00:27:38,400 --> 00:27:40,400
Oh, my God.

432
00:27:40,400 --> 00:27:45,400
I'm going to go. I'm going to look hot when I do what a goddamn disaster. This is.

433
00:27:45,400 --> 00:27:54,400
I mean, Jesus, cry many like I'm not. I understand that I brought some of this on myself.

434
00:27:54,400 --> 00:28:00,400
But there's also this genetic bullseye that I was wearing.

435
00:28:00,400 --> 00:28:05,400
And if there's anything that's like I know we're kind of Debbie downer, but the truth is that.

436
00:28:05,400 --> 00:28:07,400
That's not how I personally feel.

437
00:28:07,400 --> 00:28:08,400
I'm.

438
00:28:08,400 --> 00:28:12,400
I've been pretty positive about all of this that it's like.

439
00:28:12,400 --> 00:28:16,400
And these changes needed to happen anyway, so we're just going to do the work.

440
00:28:16,400 --> 00:28:18,400
Now I have to do it.

441
00:28:18,400 --> 00:28:21,400
It's going to keep me honest about it.

442
00:28:21,400 --> 00:28:26,400
It's not like I had intended to eat like fucking garbage.

443
00:28:26,400 --> 00:28:27,400
But.

444
00:28:27,400 --> 00:28:32,400
And again, I was eating real food, you know, it was.

445
00:28:32,400 --> 00:28:38,400
I cooked and I bought real food and we weren't eating out all the time and it wasn't a bunch of processed garbage.

446
00:28:38,400 --> 00:28:42,400
And this happened. It can happen to you.

447
00:28:42,400 --> 00:28:48,400
You need to make an I'm talking to the audience now like you got to go go get your shit checked.

448
00:28:48,400 --> 00:28:51,400
Because this can happen to you.

449
00:28:51,400 --> 00:28:59,400
If you can catch it at prediabetic levels, you don't have to worry about the shit that I'm going to worry about.

450
00:28:59,400 --> 00:29:10,400
But cannot there is no cure as of right now. However, the Chinese just in the last couple of weeks from.

451
00:29:10,400 --> 00:29:19,400
They were able to use stem cells to reverse type one diabetes in someone.

452
00:29:19,400 --> 00:29:20,400
Hey, all right.

453
00:29:20,400 --> 00:29:25,400
And get their body to produce insulin correctly again.

454
00:29:25,400 --> 00:29:34,400
So I kind of hope that there's going to be some breakthrough for people like me in my lifetime.

455
00:29:34,400 --> 00:29:39,400
I think that's a nice hope to hold on to.

456
00:29:39,400 --> 00:29:47,400
If not, it's just about how tightly controlled does my diet need to be.

457
00:29:47,400 --> 00:29:54,400
Is it something like for the rest of my life, I have to eat this certain things.

458
00:29:54,400 --> 00:30:04,400
I can go walk for half an hour after I eat is that every meal that God the dog drags me all over Helen gone.

459
00:30:04,400 --> 00:30:06,400
She's got more energy than I do.

460
00:30:06,400 --> 00:30:09,400
She will be the other day. Well, and I live in San Francisco.

461
00:30:09,400 --> 00:30:12,400
There's like lots of good places to walk.

462
00:30:12,400 --> 00:30:15,400
And so we ended up on Buchanan street the other day.

463
00:30:15,400 --> 00:30:23,400
And it's one of those streets that's literally like so high up there that the sidewalk has a staircase cut into it.

464
00:30:23,400 --> 00:30:26,400
It's not just a flat sidewalk.

465
00:30:26,400 --> 00:30:33,400
A new fucking bitch drug me straight up to goddamn the hillside and I'm like, glad you're happy.

466
00:30:33,400 --> 00:30:36,400
I need to breathe for a second.

467
00:30:36,400 --> 00:30:41,400
And we can go and we can go do those hills like it works and.

468
00:30:41,400 --> 00:30:44,400
You know, it's not doesn't kill me or anything clearly.

469
00:30:44,400 --> 00:30:50,400
So I'm just kind of that well, I ain't dead yet, bitch.

470
00:30:50,400 --> 00:30:55,400
Maybe someday we try. Yeah, maybe someday, but not not today.

471
00:30:55,400 --> 00:30:58,400
Not today, moth.

472
00:30:58,400 --> 00:31:02,400
Oh, he got the beep right. Okay. Yes.

473
00:31:02,400 --> 00:31:07,400
Well, I am now emotionally exhausted from telling the story.

474
00:31:07,400 --> 00:31:12,400
Do we have anything else to talk about it? Can we call it a show? What do you think?

475
00:31:12,400 --> 00:31:18,400
I think we could always talk about other stuff. I mean, I do not want to talk about the hot do not bring the hot to a bitch.

476
00:31:18,400 --> 00:31:20,400
I was not I wasn't going to do that.

477
00:31:20,400 --> 00:31:23,400
Stay it over on the video deck. Don't do.

478
00:31:23,400 --> 00:31:28,400
Yeah, because I had that stuff prepared just in case several, several hot two of it.

479
00:31:28,400 --> 00:31:32,400
Well, okay, I'm just I'm just going to roll this real quick.

480
00:31:32,400 --> 00:31:36,400
The days of this are over for you, my friend.

481
00:31:36,400 --> 00:32:01,400
Yeah, you can't have that no more. What is this beautiful thing you just showed us?

482
00:32:01,400 --> 00:32:14,400
Apparently, wow, popcorn and candy meat candy. And the thing is like it does not look it didn't look visually appealing at first.

483
00:32:14,400 --> 00:32:19,400
At it, but tastes. Yeah, but you taste a nice man.

484
00:32:19,400 --> 00:32:24,400
Like you can't have that. I can't have that because I know I would just end up vomiting immediately afterwards.

485
00:32:24,400 --> 00:32:32,400
Yeah, you've got your own challenges. Why don't you tell about your freaking fatty liver and the journey you've been on.

486
00:32:32,400 --> 00:32:43,400
Oh, yeah, so I'm like, I'm like, I'm like dragging out what I'm trying to say because I don't I don't want to I don't want to violate some Hippelon fucking reveals.

487
00:32:43,400 --> 00:32:50,400
You know, the you didn't want revealed, you know, you know, stress, bad decisions, lots of stress.

488
00:32:50,400 --> 00:33:03,400
I've led to a lot of weight gain that I really really did not like and it really, really freaking sucked and it pissed me off.

489
00:33:03,400 --> 00:33:14,400
But this year, 2024, the wife decided we're going to try the bad thing, which everybody was like doing the olympic stuff to lose weight and everything.

490
00:33:14,400 --> 00:33:28,400
And so we started that and see since I started that, I think in March or April, the weekend in the March beginning of April, I have basically lost a.

491
00:33:28,400 --> 00:33:38,400
87 pounds. Wow. Yeah. Yeah. Well, I wasn't going to say and I never said this to your face, but the last time I was out.

492
00:33:38,400 --> 00:33:45,400
You said it on the phone. You've said it a couple times on the phone. Can I say it on the show? Is it bad if I say it? I don't want to.

493
00:33:45,400 --> 00:33:52,400
No, you can say it. You can say it. I mean, being honest with each other. Yeah.

494
00:33:52,400 --> 00:33:56,400
The last time I was out in Texas, Christmas, two years ago.

495
00:33:56,400 --> 00:34:00,400
It's not looking good. No, you looked.

496
00:34:00,400 --> 00:34:13,400
I'm glad that you took care of it or are on the road of, you know, addressing because you just didn't look clean. There wasn't even that you didn't look good. It was that you didn't look happy.

497
00:34:13,400 --> 00:34:16,400
Oh, yeah. You look. You look very miserable.

498
00:34:16,400 --> 00:34:36,400
You know, I mean, I was diagnosed with non alcoholic. Now mind you, non alcoholic fatty liver disease, which if gone unchecked, that would have led to cirrhosis of the liver.

499
00:34:36,400 --> 00:34:43,400
I didn't even earn it. It's a little fashioned way. That sounds like the most boring way to get liver problems. Yes.

500
00:34:43,400 --> 00:34:53,400
I'm just constantly stressed out and just suffering from anxiety and just being miserable because there's a miserable man in San Francisco driving you crazy.

501
00:34:53,400 --> 00:34:59,400
And he's not talking about me, by the way, no, it's the savage effect. That's what we call it. The savage effect.

502
00:34:59,400 --> 00:35:07,400
You know, he, I saw that his assistant started a new job with him again. Yeah.

503
00:35:07,400 --> 00:35:15,400
And he's speaking of speaking of dude is going to need to have his liver check at some point. I could not.

504
00:35:15,400 --> 00:35:19,400
I'm still alive because he's within close proximity.

505
00:35:19,400 --> 00:35:26,400
I don't know, man, money. I, I, I, nobody knows what the hell we're talking about right now. This is.

506
00:35:26,400 --> 00:35:28,400
That's fine. It's all forever.

507
00:35:28,400 --> 00:35:32,400
It's some. I'm not even going to explain. Let's move on. I don't want to get sued. Yeah.

508
00:35:32,400 --> 00:35:44,400
So, so anyways, started the ozo, you know, it's not ozemic by name. It's the similglotide. It's a compound that you shoot yourself every week with.

509
00:35:44,400 --> 00:35:48,400
Now, are you worried about going blind on that stuff?

510
00:35:48,400 --> 00:35:57,400
No. And I saw, I saw that study came out this week saying, oh, it's linked to blindness.

511
00:35:57,400 --> 00:36:08,400
Funny thing is I just had my eyes checked a couple months ago and amazingly enough, they said that my eyes had actually improved.

512
00:36:08,400 --> 00:36:13,400
Wow. So, you know, I'm not really worried about going blind.

513
00:36:13,400 --> 00:36:17,400
Okay. How long are you, you're not going to be on it forever either, right?

514
00:36:17,400 --> 00:36:26,400
No. I mean, because honestly, I would, I wouldn't want to be on it forever, but at the same time, I mean, the thing, the thing about it is that.

515
00:36:26,400 --> 00:36:35,400
It's a great, I kept telling myself, all I need is something like just a jump start to get on the weight loss path and everything.

516
00:36:35,400 --> 00:36:41,400
Because that's the hardest part for anybody. It's just getting started with it.

517
00:36:41,400 --> 00:36:50,400
Well, that that jump start came and since then it's just been, oh, hey, I shouldn't eat this. I shouldn't drink that.

518
00:36:50,400 --> 00:37:00,400
I shouldn't do this because the effects that I have feel afterwards, not good, the nausea and throwing up and everything, just it's not pleasant.

519
00:37:00,400 --> 00:37:10,400
So why even put myself through it? And Dr. Peppers have become like a thing of the past, I think.

520
00:37:10,400 --> 00:37:18,400
Well, I was teasing you about that a while back. I didn't realize it was part and parcel to all of this.

521
00:37:18,400 --> 00:37:25,400
But I remember asking you, you know, about the Dr. Peppers, because you were a very heavy Dr. Pepper consumer.

522
00:37:25,400 --> 00:37:30,400
You, you should have gotten the diabetes goddamnit. You were the one drinking the Dr. Peppers.

523
00:37:30,400 --> 00:37:33,400
I was headed there. I was headed there.

524
00:37:33,400 --> 00:37:37,400
But I didn't have the genetics for it. I know. Yeah.

525
00:37:37,400 --> 00:37:41,400
Fucking like I never got anything good from any part of my family, right?

526
00:37:41,400 --> 00:37:50,400
Clearly just the genetics or trash, the growing up was chaos. I will, I stressed the broken relationships that broke the promises.

527
00:37:50,400 --> 00:38:01,400
Fucking Christ almighty, man. I just never got anything good from the old situation. So, yeah, I'm not going to sit here and beat myself up over this diagnosis.

528
00:38:01,400 --> 00:38:08,400
I don't think that's the right move. And despite the fact that this is definitely something that could have killed me.

529
00:38:08,400 --> 00:38:17,400
I didn't, I didn't, I didn't end up in hospital. I didn't, I never ended, you know, I didn't hit a kind of, I didn't have a coma.

530
00:38:17,400 --> 00:38:27,400
I didn't wake up on the floor and crash my truck. Never had to go to the ER. The heart's fucking kind of doing what it should be doing again. Finally, I can see.

531
00:38:27,400 --> 00:38:36,400
As far as the fallout from this, it's hopefully just going to be a turn into good health.

532
00:38:36,400 --> 00:38:43,400
And I think that's all you can really do, right? Is just embrace the suck because it's the new normal.

533
00:38:43,400 --> 00:38:48,400
And if you do that, it may not suck quite as much and you can get something good out of it.

534
00:38:48,400 --> 00:38:56,400
Yeah, that's the whole thing for me has been like since it has altered the way that I think about everything.

535
00:38:56,400 --> 00:39:06,400
I don't miss certain things like you would think I would like the doctor peppers. I can have one of the ones made with pure cane sugar.

536
00:39:06,400 --> 00:39:16,400
I can have one of those every now and then by every now and then I mean like maybe one a week at best, but I don't go and buy them.

537
00:39:16,400 --> 00:39:21,400
So because I just kind of bypass that aisle in the grocery store, I don't even think about it.

538
00:39:21,400 --> 00:39:38,400
So the same thing with a lot of different foods. I was like you a big, big carbohydrate guy protein, beef, pauses, you give it to me, I'm good to go.

539
00:39:38,400 --> 00:39:49,400
And not so much anymore. I can do it in small little doses. But if I like like you tend to overeat.

540
00:39:49,400 --> 00:40:01,400
And it ends bad the night ends bad with that. So I, you know, and I know that a lot of people, a lot of people are dogging the ozemic stuff.

541
00:40:01,400 --> 00:40:09,400
I don't understand why I think that 2023 all of the Hollywood celebs and all the elites were doing and saying, Oh, this is great.

542
00:40:09,400 --> 00:40:21,400
24. It's, Oh, this is bad. I don't know. I mean, if it makes you feel better and it gets you more out of life, you know, more than what you want out of life.

543
00:40:21,400 --> 00:40:33,400
Who cares what everybody else thinks? That's exactly what I was thinking. I mean, and think, okay, now I will say the weekly injection part really kind of sucks, especially Satan as.

544
00:40:33,400 --> 00:40:45,400
I can't do it myself. Yeah, I'm not. I'm not. I'm not. I do it myself. It wouldn't happen. I'm not particularly enjoying the finger six. Yeah.

545
00:40:45,400 --> 00:40:47,400
I'm able to do it today.

546
00:40:47,400 --> 00:40:58,400
A bunch. At least two every day, but it's it can be more like four or five, you know, depending on what I want to look at at any given time trying to understand.

547
00:40:58,400 --> 00:41:09,400
Okay, I was this one I woke up and then I ate and then two hours later I was this, you know, you've got to, you got to kind of develop the data to figure out what's happening with.

548
00:41:09,400 --> 00:41:12,400
With the things that you do.

549
00:41:12,400 --> 00:41:25,400
But I will say that it's not nearly as fucked up as I thought it was going to be. They give you this it's called a Lancet and goes into this little thing that you fucking load and it's like a spring loaded thing.

550
00:41:25,400 --> 00:41:33,400
And then you twist the top and it determines how deep the Lancet goes. And I mean it it is.

551
00:41:33,400 --> 00:41:38,400
Like a two to six or zero to six and like on a two.

552
00:41:38,400 --> 00:41:55,400
You can't even feel it in certain fingers and you just as you do it, you get to know which fingers a little more sensitive to the Lancet and so you don't hit it is deep and once it's over it doesn't I mean it's as painless as it can get, you know, for the most part.

553
00:41:55,400 --> 00:42:08,400
You definitely hear you feel it, but it's not overwhelming and you know I don't feel like my fingers look and look like I've been jabbing them with a fucking needle for the last two weeks now.

554
00:42:08,400 --> 00:42:13,400
But you know having to do this stuff is is it's surreal man.

555
00:42:13,400 --> 00:42:22,400
If I had the the ozemic pin like the pen style where it's just an eerie little needle that you just kind of throw in there and just push the button and it takes care of the rest.

556
00:42:22,400 --> 00:42:31,400
I think I could do that but the you know I actually get like an actual syringe and I could go.

557
00:42:31,400 --> 00:42:34,400
I don't know that I don't know that I could do that to myself either.

558
00:42:34,400 --> 00:42:43,400
Yeah so I have the wife to it. Yeah I bet. Like hey think about it babe every week you get to stab me if I pitch you off.

559
00:42:43,400 --> 00:42:48,400
You know that's when you find out who your friends and family really are.

560
00:42:48,400 --> 00:42:58,400
And the funny thing is like if she she thinks every week like she's like oh I'm so sorry I'm so sorry I'm like I didn't feel anything but it's all good.

561
00:42:58,400 --> 00:43:11,400
It's like no I just like it's how it's held it's hell getting older but the thing is that I it ain't for pussies that's for sure I feel like I'm not I'm not unique here.

562
00:43:11,400 --> 00:43:18,400
Now we're far from it. Yeah this is just stuff that happens to people and so anyway.

563
00:43:18,400 --> 00:43:28,400
Which I mean hopefully us talking about it you know on here I mean yes it's not like us making fun of Hock Twill Girl or Jack Dordy or somebody.

564
00:43:28,400 --> 00:43:36,400
No this is real. This is real talk it's real life I mean this is something that you know a lot of people deal with so hey.

565
00:43:36,400 --> 00:43:41,400
The speeds are mission which is to reflect real life back at the audience.

566
00:43:41,400 --> 00:43:44,400
This just happens to be kind of shitty.

567
00:43:44,400 --> 00:44:00,400
This is the suck this is the suck and we'll get back to we'll get back to laughing and making jokes about things shortly but we felt like we should talk about this because we've been talking about it amongst ourselves for quite some time now.

568
00:44:00,400 --> 00:44:06,400
I mean since the last episode that's right after the last episode is when you got the diagnosis.

569
00:44:06,400 --> 00:44:07,400
Yeah.

570
00:44:07,400 --> 00:44:13,400
And that's when like you were really you were really struggling and you were really down.

571
00:44:13,400 --> 00:44:16,400
Oh yeah I got kicked in the fucking nuts is what happened.

572
00:44:16,400 --> 00:44:25,400
And once you once you got on the medication once you you know we were talking about getting together earlier and you're like I'm having side effects I don't feel comfortable.

573
00:44:25,400 --> 00:44:31,400
I'm like okay that's cool you know well I couldn't see you need yeah yeah you need the adjustment.

574
00:44:31,400 --> 00:44:33,400
I'm like Rob where are you?

575
00:44:33,400 --> 00:44:39,400
Yeah I wouldn't have been able to see I wouldn't have been able to see you but it wouldn't be because you were showing me an empty chair I just wouldn't have been able to see you.

576
00:44:39,400 --> 00:44:40,400
Yeah exactly.

577
00:44:40,400 --> 00:44:43,400
You can't see me so okay.

578
00:44:43,400 --> 00:44:45,400
Did you just do the John Cena thing?

579
00:44:45,400 --> 00:44:47,400
Yes you can't see me.

580
00:44:47,400 --> 00:44:50,400
So where do you go?

581
00:44:50,400 --> 00:44:53,400
I have a holiday PSA for you.

582
00:44:53,400 --> 00:45:02,400
A study by feat finder revealed that a 234% surge in Google searches for Pinau fracture.

583
00:45:02,400 --> 00:45:12,400
It occurs over the frisky festive season apparently last year researcher studied 3,421 German men.

584
00:45:12,400 --> 00:45:23,400
And found that chances of staining the painful Pinau injury especially among those in middle age rose significantly between December 24th and December 26th.

585
00:45:23,400 --> 00:45:31,400
So people had so this is the PSA people if you are having sex over Christmas.

586
00:45:31,400 --> 00:45:34,400
Do it right know what you're doing.

587
00:45:34,400 --> 00:45:40,400
I'm thinking okay if she's breaking your dick you're doing it wrong.

588
00:45:40,400 --> 00:45:42,400
You can just do that on your own.

589
00:45:42,400 --> 00:45:45,400
I'm just saying if she's breaking your dick.

590
00:45:45,400 --> 00:45:49,400
Rob Ronald lays in general then he knows that he knows that transition.

591
00:45:49,400 --> 00:45:56,400
And Nick vicious I mean this is played for the gay community too if he if he's breaking your dick he's doing it wrong.

592
00:45:56,400 --> 00:45:58,400
You're top right you can tell me.

593
00:45:58,400 --> 00:46:04,040
have nothing to fucking awkward. I am not engaging in this conversation! Robrod! Robrod!

594
00:46:04,040 --> 00:46:06,800
Robrod! Robrod! Now! Robrod! Yeah! Robrod! Now! Robrod! Yes! Robrod sons

595
00:46:06,800 --> 00:46:12,180
and gentlemen! Yes! And with that, that's our show! Yeah! Well shit, we could have ended

596
00:46:12,180 --> 00:46:17,860
this two minutes ago and not had all... You got to end it with something good. That's the

597
00:46:17,860 --> 00:46:23,180
PSA. What's going on? I mean, hey, it's the holiday season. Mary Christmas, don't break

598
00:46:23,180 --> 00:46:28,200
your dick! You're a fucking mess. Okay, that's our show.

599
00:46:28,200 --> 00:46:30,100
Bye now, see you next time.